OH BUDDHA!! (coz im a buddhist haa) I FINALLY LEFT S/W ENGG ASSIGNMENT!!!
Sux lor!! My data comm and java report all craping only. Shit think i'll get back the same comments from my lecturer >.< and s/w engg no need to say she sure mark till vomite blood and "bai mo" but i dont care so much now, this is the best i can do. My studies never excel before so i dont have much expectation on anything other than a "PASS" in my cert.
Many times i feel like giving up not only assignment gave me alot of stress and my parents still putting on pressure on me.
Expecting me to fork out my PRECIOUS rest time to go for taiji training, and saying excercise is relax also -.- yea right excercise is tensing up my muscle only lor. And its the wrong time to ask me do this stupid stuff, its not like jogging where the maximum u can go is 1hr, but this is u gotta get to the CC in the evening somemore, follow the aunties and uncles pace and its too far for me to run home. After that i gotta wait till my parents finish doing their "mouth excercise" before i can go home. By the time i reach home still need to fight for toilet to bath, and by the time i try to settle down to start doing my work its going to be 11pm!! What can i do at that time?!?! On my laptop stare at the screen for not even an hour then off it then go sleep.
All in all, if i go for a jog, its 1 hr, if i go for taiji, its likely more than 3 hrs.
Which would u choose at this point of time? I have already sacrifice my fridays evenings for it, since its friday saturday morning i still can wake up late n try to do my stuff. But they want me to "give up" my wednesday also!!
I gave them an inch they want a yard, so if i gave them a yard they will sure to want a mile!! This is rubbish!!!!! I cant tell them straight, think the most likely thing i would do and i WILL DO is to be defient.
Find excuses or disappear on wed noon - evening till they left. Anyway assignment deadline is around the corner and Mock Exam is coming up i got no choice but to tell white lies. I dont want to and i dont wish to do that!! But i got no choice!! They FORCED me to!!!
Sick of living here, if i have the chance to move i'll move, but of course i know they are my parents i still will respect them, pay them a visit but living with them its like a bird living in a cage that trying very hard to fly out.
